EDIT: HOLY CARP I just hit 500 watchers.
I know what I have to do, but it's very hard to start. I've put it off for SO LONG... I feel so heavy, like it's so hard to make the first step:
I have to make a comic / manga about girls in quicksand.
Sure I've been drawing some racy stand-alone pictures, but for some reason, the idea of crafting a quicksand comic has always been so personal to me, its built up a mythic quality, like a monster I have to defeat, but I'm scared to do it.
I think part of me is scared to open up and let my imagination pour out. All these stories that are bottled up inside my head. That, and I'm scared to draw backgrounds
I'm about to reach the 500 Watchers milestone, which makes it more freaky: all eyes are on me, I have so many people's attention.
To understand how much tension has built up: when it comes to artwork, I've really been slacking for EIGHT ENTIRE YEARS. I planned for the last 8 years to spend more time drawing, and find some way to sell my art. Now that time is finally here: my job was too annoying, I couldn't take it anymore, so I left it in the dust. It's just me and my art abilities now.
So I've really forced the showdown I've always wanted: I finally have to draw my dreaded quicksand comic. If it sells well, I'm going to keep on drawing! If my art doesn't sell so well... I'll be returning to a day job that I most likely find boring and dreary.
So far things have been promising and I've received nothing but support from my great fans... WOW I can't believe I have 500 watchers...
Most late-nights I will make a post when I live-stream on PICARTO, so you can see me confronting my demons... and vanquishing them!